Monday, January 30, 2006
updates updates~
Hapi chinese new yr! =D
woke up early in e mornin n went to grandma hse..feelin so excited n nervous upon seein ah ma n my cousins coz it's been a yr since i last saw dem =p i am glad tat dey r doin fine. al my cousins looked gorgeous n when i am wif dem, i looked like a small gal =s ppl kept askin mi on where is my bf and i juz dun know hw to reply dem. coz every1 is hopin to see him n he dun reali haf e intention to go my grandma hse or visit any of my relatives. i cant possibly tel dem tat he dun feel like comin . plus, my mum haven reali accepted him coz she thinks tat i can find someone better n of coz someone she like. there are so many things goin on, n i cant tel him abt al these. i rem once when one of aunt asked, "ah wen, why u dint bring ur bf here for us to see?" n when i was abt to ans her, my other aunt juz said," aiya, coz her mum dun like den hw to bring?" i am so paiseh n shocked upon hearin tat..and al i can do at tat time is to look away. every chi new yr when i gt to see my cousins bringin their bf along wif dem, i would be veri envious of dem coz dey are able to do it n while i cant. it's not tat i dun wan to bring him along, it's juz tat he is not reali willing to. coz he needed time. ok..i understand but somehow he shld haf understand hw i feel. it is definetly hard for mi to deal wif al these alone. i am reali weak and soft hearted =( guess i still haf a long way to go.
*enjoyed workin wif steph, peiling and wanqin for our DPIP proj =) n i believe tat we can produce gd work!*
- i teared
- dun know for hw long le
- he juz cant seems to understand
- coz he dun know e things tat had been goin on
- i am tired
- sometimes i wish someone on someday would juz take mi away
- i know tat i am unhappy
- think i reali nid to find somethin to cheer mi up =)
Hapi chinese new yr! =D
woke up early in e mornin n went to grandma hse..feelin so excited n nervous upon seein ah ma n my cousins coz it's been a yr since i last saw dem =p i am glad tat dey r doin fine. al my cousins looked gorgeous n when i am wif dem, i looked like a small gal =s ppl kept askin mi on where is my bf and i juz dun know hw to reply dem. coz every1 is hopin to see him n he dun reali haf e intention to go my grandma hse or visit any of my relatives. i cant possibly tel dem tat he dun feel like comin . plus, my mum haven reali accepted him coz she thinks tat i can find someone better n of coz someone she like. there are so many things goin on, n i cant tel him abt al these. i rem once when one of aunt asked, "ah wen, why u dint bring ur bf here for us to see?" n when i was abt to ans her, my other aunt juz said," aiya, coz her mum dun like den hw to bring?" i am so paiseh n shocked upon hearin tat..and al i can do at tat time is to look away. every chi new yr when i gt to see my cousins bringin their bf along wif dem, i would be veri envious of dem coz dey are able to do it n while i cant. it's not tat i dun wan to bring him along, it's juz tat he is not reali willing to. coz he needed time. ok..i understand but somehow he shld haf understand hw i feel. it is definetly hard for mi to deal wif al these alone. i am reali weak and soft hearted =( guess i still haf a long way to go.
*enjoyed workin wif steph, peiling and wanqin for our DPIP proj =) n i believe tat we can produce gd work!*
- i teared
- dun know for hw long le
- he juz cant seems to understand
- coz he dun know e things tat had been goin on
- i am tired
- sometimes i wish someone on someday would juz take mi away
- i know tat i am unhappy
- think i reali nid to find somethin to cheer mi up =)
what we could have been, 12:18 AM.
