Tuesday, January 29, 2008
today. 29.01.08
dint turned up for work coz down with eye infection =s
strangly enough,
when gt to know tt my left eye was swollen upon waking up
my heart just tell me : stay at hm and dont go to work
i dun haf tt kind of feeling whereby:
i just want to go work no matter how serious my condition can be
all i want is to stay at hm, instead of being in the centre
it's a different thing from the times when i was in PCS
whenever i was unwell or anything,
i will just put on a brave front, travel all the way to the centre,
just to see my children and colleagues there (:
coz with the thought of being able to see them are enuff to make me 4gt abt me being unwell
the prospect there might be alot better but something's not right
dont get me wrong,
it's not tt the children there is not nice or anything
it's just tt my heart is not there
and i am not happy being there ):
certainly not.
me, with my swollen eye =s
what we could have been, 11:10 PM.
Monday, January 28, 2008
natasha. who has grown closely to me over tis past 2 weeks (:
dint know tt she is tt close to me till today
as usual,
she will call me "Mama" every now and then to get my attention
frm what her grandma said,
if she calls someone "Mama", tt means she has already somehow bonded with the person
and tt's only ME! (:
evening,
while she was waiting for the school bus at the common area
and when i was in the music room with the kids,
she cried out loud for me and haf her face sticking close to the glass
just to see me (:
this went on for a couple of mins
and i couldnt take it, so i opened the door
she came in immed and wanted me to hug her tite
she stopped crying the moment i carry her in my arms (:
i haf to let her go when the bus was here
and there she went on crying again even she boarded the bus
argh! how i wish i was there to comfort and reassure her tt Teacher wen is here
tt's natasha frm my class (:
dint know tt she is tt close to me till today
as usual,
she will call me "Mama" every now and then to get my attention
frm what her grandma said,
if she calls someone "Mama", tt means she has already somehow bonded with the person
and tt's only ME! (:
evening,
while she was waiting for the school bus at the common area
and when i was in the music room with the kids,
she cried out loud for me and haf her face sticking close to the glass
just to see me (:
this went on for a couple of mins
and i couldnt take it, so i opened the door
she came in immed and wanted me to hug her tite
she stopped crying the moment i carry her in my arms (:
i haf to let her go when the bus was here
and there she went on crying again even she boarded the bus
argh! how i wish i was there to comfort and reassure her tt Teacher wen is here
tt's natasha frm my class (:
what we could have been, 10:33 PM.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
i really miss my PG2 children at PCS ):
and i mean alot
have been wanting to visit the centre
but i juz couldnt take time off frm my new job
argh!
*hopefully they still rem their "Miss Tan" (:
and i mean alot
have been wanting to visit the centre
but i juz couldnt take time off frm my new job
argh!
*hopefully they still rem their "Miss Tan" (:
what we could have been, 11:00 PM.
Monday, January 14, 2008
14.01.08
Natasha
marks my 1st day of work at LV (:
took over the toddler class "Sunny Sunflower"
with only 2 children in it!
yes. i mean 2! (:
yes. i mean 2! (:
Kai and Natasha.
but more will be expected to come in the later part of the yr, prob march
i must say that,
the way LV requires the teachers to do stuffs is
totally different, which i quite agree of the way (:
most impt, i like!
i mean, it's more flexible in a way tt i dun haf to keep follow the trend
which can be really tiring
alright.
let me introduce the 2 kids in my class (:
KAI OWHA (still not very clear on how to spell the last name)
a mixed percentage of germany + chinese
a smart-good looking-sweet- boy (:
a mixed percentage of germany + chinese
a smart-good looking-sweet- boy (:
teachers jsut adore him coz they will keep coming to my class to play with him
is able to express his feelings, such as "I feel sad", "Teacher Su scold me"
and whenever he come across objects tt he is not aware of,
he will ask "What's tt" (:
plus, when i gt upset with him
he will keep tryin to ease my anger by saying no no no no no
*HE IS THE 1ST ONE TO REM AND SAY OUT MY NAME! TEACHER WEN!
isnt he cute? (:
Natashaa small-size girl, only the 3rd wk in LV
with a really exploding screaming +crying voice
but she will look very sweet upon smiling (:
took the effort in calming her down by being the comedian
and I DID IT!
the senior teacher was quite impressed with it
coz it's her 1st time to see her being so settled, w/o much crying
HURRAY! (:
it's not tt i wan to get the "praise" or anything
just tt i know she is my girl and i cant bear to leave her to cry her lungs out
footnote: i like my new job (:
what we could have been, 10:32 PM.
Friday, January 11, 2008
i realised something
whenever i am feeling down or anything,
i would just go on a shopping binge
to get myself loads of sweets, junk food
or even make e effort to walk home alone, with my ph switched off (:
mayb tt's my way of letting out everything,
instead of venting it onto somebody else (:
i know ppl haf been disagreeing of me being with emil
coz of his qualifications, family background blah blah blah
it's kind of tough for me to deal with both sides for all these yrs,
w/o the support from close family + friends.
yes
he may not be as sensitive to feelings,
he may not be as xi xin to my routines,
he may not be as smart to others
he may not be able to stay by me when i am sick due to NS
but he is the one, who has went thru so much with me over the 6 yrs (:
i admit tt there are times when i really just want to walk away,
but i just couldnt let go
all the while, he is there to take in my nonsense, tantrums
and of coz always here for me whenver i cry over all kind of stuffs
of cause, there are so many others that are way better than him
but,
he is my choice from the start, way back 6 yrs ago (:
all along, my feelings for him is just so natural, and i really mean it
thou he might work hard to change for the better
but he is still the same him, afterall.
the always Mr. Nice Guy tt ppl have been calling him (:
How i wish i could get the support from ppl around me
i really wish (:
the whole lot of goodies tt i gotten for myself (:
what we could have been, 6:28 PM.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
GOT A NEW JOB! =)
at learning vision, republic poly
was almost late for the interview
coz happily looking after my nephew
aha
took the bus with the poly students
it's kinda weird coz i dun belong there
but i just act brave and walk past them to find my way there
lost the way for 1/2 hr coz the place is really HUGE!
i must really say tt
the centre is very nice
i mean the environment + settings
spacious. facilities in good condition...blah blah blah
woooohhhhhooooooo~!
most impt! it's AIR-CONDITIONED! (:
finally sia
actually was supposed to go back for another round of interview
but the supervisior cal up the HQ
saying she is impressed with me
so TA-DA!~
the position is being offered to me (:
will be starting work next week. i just cant wait!
at learning vision, republic poly
was almost late for the interview
coz happily looking after my nephew
aha
took the bus with the poly students
it's kinda weird coz i dun belong there
but i just act brave and walk past them to find my way there
lost the way for 1/2 hr coz the place is really HUGE!
i must really say tt
the centre is very nice
i mean the environment + settings
spacious. facilities in good condition...blah blah blah
woooohhhhhooooooo~!
most impt! it's AIR-CONDITIONED! (:
finally sia
actually was supposed to go back for another round of interview
but the supervisior cal up the HQ
saying she is impressed with me
so TA-DA!~
the position is being offered to me (:
will be starting work next week. i just cant wait!
view from the waiting area (:
took tis when playing with him (: isnt he cute
what we could have been, 10:43 PM.
Monday, January 07, 2008
today.
2 interviews (:
morning. went to NTUC Childcare (Marsiling)
2 interviews (:
morning. went to NTUC Childcare (Marsiling)
wat i like about there is that
it is really clean and spacious
just like it have undergone renovation not long ago
just like it have undergone renovation not long ago
the offer is not bad too
but there's one thing i just dun like is that
it is NTUC CHILDCARE!
blah.
shall call up the person to negotiate with the salary again
who knows.
it might be the salary tt will actually make me work with NTUC. aha
noon.
went to Phyllis Riccia's School for interview
i must really say tt
IT IS A HUGE CHILDCARE!!
with 4 storey high + a garden by itself
woah!
but not air-conditioned =s
offer is better thou, but i kinda taken aback by their centre's environment
aha. shall not elaborate here.
ANY BETTER OFFERS OUT THERE?
Phyllis Riccia's School
acting cute. when i haf nothing to do but to wait for the time for interview
what we could have been, 11:25 PM.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
TA-DA!~
My new look for 2008 (:
Peeps: How is it? (:
what we could have been, 6:31 PM.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
jobless.
Currently on the job-hunt
ARGH!
job recommendations, anyone? (:
*i miss my nephew
what we could have been, 11:57 AM.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
HAPPY NEW YEAR! =)
what we could have been, 1:34 PM.
