Friday, January 11, 2008
i realised something
whenever i am feeling down or anything,
i would just go on a shopping binge
to get myself loads of sweets, junk food
or even make e effort to walk home alone, with my ph switched off (:
mayb tt's my way of letting out everything,
instead of venting it onto somebody else (:
i know ppl haf been disagreeing of me being with emil
coz of his qualifications, family background blah blah blah
it's kind of tough for me to deal with both sides for all these yrs,
w/o the support from close family + friends.
yes
he may not be as sensitive to feelings,
he may not be as xi xin to my routines,
he may not be as smart to others
he may not be able to stay by me when i am sick due to NS
but he is the one, who has went thru so much with me over the 6 yrs (:
i admit tt there are times when i really just want to walk away,
but i just couldnt let go
all the while, he is there to take in my nonsense, tantrums
and of coz always here for me whenver i cry over all kind of stuffs
of cause, there are so many others that are way better than him
but,
he is my choice from the start, way back 6 yrs ago (:
all along, my feelings for him is just so natural, and i really mean it
thou he might work hard to change for the better
but he is still the same him, afterall.
the always Mr. Nice Guy tt ppl have been calling him (:
How i wish i could get the support from ppl around me
i really wish (:
the whole lot of goodies tt i gotten for myself (:
what we could have been, 6:28 PM.
